Hey Gorgeous!

The holidays have a way of amplifying everything.

The joy.
The noise.
The expectations.

And when you’ve experienced pregnancy or infant loss… the grief.

What’s supposed to be “the most wonderful time of the year” can instead feel like a season you’re just trying to survive. Every commercial, every family photo, every “So when are you guys having kids?” lands like a quiet gut punch. Even well-meaning cheer can feel unbearable when your heart is holding a story no one can see.

If this is you, let me say this plainly:
There is nothing wrong with you, love.

Grief doesn’t follow a calendar so it doesn’t take holidays off, and it definitely doesn’t care about matching pajamas or festive brunches.

Why the Holidays Hurt More After Loss

Pregnancy loss doesn’t just take a baby.
It takes dreams.
Timelines.
Imagined traditions.
Future memories you were already rehearsing in your mind.

The holidays tend to spotlight what’s missing. You may be grieving the baby who should be here this year. Or the pregnancy you thought you’d be announcing. Or the version of yourself who believed this season would look different.

Add family dynamics, social pressure, spiritual confusion, and exhaustion—and suddenly December feels like emotional quicksand.

You might notice:

• Your body feels heavier, you’re unmotivated to do anything
  
• Shorter patience and sudden, unexpected tears
  
• Guilt for not feeling “grateful enough”
  
• A desire to disappear, isolate, or numb out

This is grief asking to be acknowledged.

You Are Allowed to Do the Holidays Differently

Let me free you from something right now... you do not owe anyone your presence, performance, or emotional labor.

You are allowed to:

• Skip events that feel draining
  
• Leave early without explanation
  
• Say “no” and not follow it with a justification
  
• Redefine what the holidays look like this year

This season may not be about celebration.
It may be about preservation.

And that is sacred work.

Gentle Ways to Navigate the Season

There is no fixing grief, but there are ways to move through this time with more softness and less self-betrayal.

1. Name the Loss—Out Loud or in Writing
Unspoken grief grows heavier, so journal, pray, meditate, talk to someone safe. Write a letter to your baby. Light a candle and say their name. Acknowledgment is medicine.

2. Create a Ritual of Remembrance
Grief needs a container, and it could look like:

• Lighting a candle on a specific day
  
• Creating a small altar or memory space
  
• Donating or volunteering in your baby’s honor
  
• Wearing or carrying something symbolic

Ritual doesn’t erase pain—it gives it somewhere to rest.

3. Tend to Your Nervous System
Your body remembers the loss, even when your mind is trying to “be okay.” Slow things down.

• Gentle breathing
  
• Warm baths
  
• Walking outside
  
• Somatic practices that help you feel safe again

Regulation is survival, not indulgence.

4. Lower the Bar. Then Lower It Again.
This is not the year for perfection, productivity or pushing through.
Eat what’s going to nourish you. Rest more than you think you should. Cancel plans if your body says no.

You don’t heal by forcing yourself to cope.
You heal by listening.

5. Let Joy Be Fleeting—and That’s Okay
If laughter shows up, let it.
If sadness follows right behind it, let that too.

Grief and joy are not enemies, they often travel together so you don’t have to choose one to honor the other.

If the Holidays Feel Lonely, You’re Not Alone

One of the hardest parts of pregnancy loss is how isolating it can feel—especially during a season centered around family, children, and togetherness.

If you find yourself thinking:

• “No one really gets this.”
  
• “I feel invisible.”
  
• “I don’t belong anywhere right now.”
  

Please hear this: there are women who see you, who speak this language, who understand the ache without needing you to explain it.

You deserve support that is gentle, trauma-informed, and rooted in compassion.

A Final Word, From One Woman Holding Space for Another

If all you do this holiday season is breathe, rest, and make it through—that is enough.

Your grief is not a failure of faith.
Your sadness is not a lack of gratitude.
Your healing does not have a deadline.

You are still whole.
You are still worthy of care.
And your baby—however briefly they were here—matters.

I’m holding you close through this season.
And when you’re ready, there is space for you to heal.

With love and deep reverence,
Amber

P.S. If the holiday-heaviness has you seeking a space where you don’t have to explain your grief or rush your healing, LiberationGang exists as a soft place to land. It’s my community for women navigating pregnancy and infant loss—where you can exhale, be witnessed, held and move at your own pace. When the world feels loud and lonely, come be held.

✨ Enter the temple ✨